One Day

One day soon you will see
all that you wanted
all that you hung on to
just got up and decided to leave

So tired of fighting
So tired of always trying
believing empty meaningless words
Why did I let you change me

Now were stuck between
what use to be and what we could be
if only you could open your eyes
and see how miserable your making me

Promise after promise
plea after plea
all the things you had told me
were all tactics used to keep me.

My dreams got put on hold
so that you could be all you wanted to be
you took for granted of who I am
became selfish of only your needs

One day soon you will see
you will come and won’t find me
What was so important to you
would be long gone

 

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I’m the Mom.

I’m the mom who secretly cries in the bathroom

because it is too much to take in.

 

I’m the mom who constantly gives in to her child

because picking battles is a crucial part of my day.

 

I’m the mom who is always yelling “no don’t do that”

because my child is putting himself in dangerous situations.

 

I’m the mom who begs and pleads with my child

because they will not get dressed or even eat.

 

I’m the mom who is always chasing her child

because he is so energetic he just can not sit still for a second.

 

I’m the mom who feels guilty for being more focused on one kid

because that one child has so many needs to keep up with.

 

I’m the mom who is constantly consoling my child

because he can’t understand why kids will not play.

 

I’m the mom who advocates for her child

because other’s don’t really know what he truly needs.

 

I’m the mom who is constantly getting criticized

because people just can’t try to understand

 

I’m the mom who at the end of the day tries her best

because that is all I can really do

 

I’m the mom of a special needs child

just trying to get through each day.

 

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Waves

The waves are crashing against her
pulling her violently in
struggling as she gasps for breath
falling deeper and deeper in
she is paralyzed by her unsealed fate
as she looses the strength to fight

 

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Invisible

She has been destroyed
by the words they have said
been knocked to the ground
by the actions that were placed
you wanted her to fall
just admit that you did
watched from the corner of your eyes
as she faked a smile trying not to cry
watched as she smiled trying to fit in
while you acted like she didn’t exist
no matter how hard she tried
to make everything right
you all had your minds made up
she wasn’t to be liked and acknowledge
treated decently like the other.
Sad part is she has apologized
You don’t really know her well enough
to write her off like this
good-hearted people you say you are
don’t treat other people like this

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World full of pain

The raindrops fall along the hard cold ground
she stands there as her world comes crumbling down.
The winter’s cold runs through out her veins
you wouldn’t know spring was on its way.
Tears fill up her tired eyes as she tries so hard not to cry
Why did she even bother to try?

You claimed you had loved her
Built her up with your kind gentle words.
Then knocked her down just to destroy her
as you sat there grinning from ear to ear.
You walked away so very happily every time
while she laid there struggling to survive.

Now years later she always wonders why
Herself she could never ever find.
When all these years you controlled her
Every decision filled with your endless lies.
Any form of happiness was vanished without a trace
You loved the misery and pain that appeared on her face.

Looking in the mirror she faces the cold hard truth
she hates the person she has come to be.
Anxiety that controls everything she wants to do
depression preventing her to look at life like she needs to.
A heart that has been filled so much hate
blinds her from seeing that love cant change her fate.

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Your L❤VE

Every breath I take I breath you in

    like a breath of fresh air
making it easier to breath once again
 
When you hold me tight in your arms
    I feel so safe and warm
like nothing could ever harm me again
 
Every moment that is spent with you
    such happiness within
something I have never felt before
 
The look in your eye’s when you smile
    melts my heart
and im lost deep withing you again
 
When your not near me
    I feel so lost
my life just feels so empty and incomplete
 
The love I feel and have for you
   is unexplainable
could never picture my life without you

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Hidden and Abused

Hidden bruises and tear filled eyes
you wouldn’t notice she was dying inside.
 
Breath after breath she just lays in pain
wondering when it will all happen again.
 
Image after image flash inside her head
as she lays there empty on her bed.
 
The loud footsteps kick in the door
grabbing her hair to get dragged along the floor.
 
Throwing her backpack against her chest
time for school where she must pretend.
 
If only these people knew the cold hard truth
all these long years she has been abused.
 
Breath in breath out and fake that smile
for once she is safe at least for a little while.

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